I'm sitting at tom's house. I'm having a cigarette so it is difficult to type. And I'm am not used to a PC ketboard so this might take a while.
I had a really good time tonight. Other than the the fact that I want to cry at every opportune unterval... I don't know what I feel. I really want someone to tell me. This life is so full of confusion. I hate to seem like a pesismest but lets face it, that's what I am. Don't you hate it when yo feel so much and you can't put it into words?
Right now I'm back to basics. I'm still completely hung over about a guy that I can't have. It's funny because sometimes i think that he wants the same things that I( want but I just don't know how to say it out loud.
Sometimes I wish that this blog is something of an answer forem. I need so desperately for someone to give me some guidance, but I then start to wonder how selfish it is to ask for it. What do I do? Where do I go? Please.