Happiness is fleeting. I received a phone call tonight from somebody that I have been infatuated with for 6 years. He asked me to spend valentines day with him. I was in raptures! I later saw him somewhat unexpectedly and because my brother and the rest of the world was around, I deliberately ignored him. It's actually hilarius that I find myself able to flirt with anyone in front of my brother, exept him. I think it has something to do with the fact that even though he doesn't have a clue about what's going on between me and this libellous character, and for that reason I am always vigilent towards the situation. I am so torn because I know that it pisses this boy off endlessly but I also am very concerned about what will happen if my brother actually had to find out. Ambivalence was an affliction granted to me in large doses.
But back to the point. I was so extatic to hear from him and after I saw him we got into a fight. I drove home ruminating the situation I was faced with: do I call him and try sort things out or do I leave it and hope for him to call me? Well, I chose the latter and the moment I walked in the door my phone started ringing and his name appeared on the screen of my cell. I love the ups, I hate the downs. We are bck on for tomorrow night. Now I just have to figure out whether the pros really do weigh out the cons.
I miss my girls. Jo, Kay and Sarah, life is not worth living without you!