I am so f**king bored. There's so much work to do but I have spent the majority of the day recapturing. A necessary task in order to continue, but so freakin tedious. I've re-read my whole blog (I used to be very naïve). Makes me a little sad. I was so full of feeling, even if it was most often heartbreak and torment, but now, lately, i've just been numb. I feel grey. Maybe it's reality settling in. Maybe it's just boredom. Maybe it's me forcing myself not to feel things I don't want to feel. Maybe it's a whole bunch of things. Maybe it's everything. I should never have woken up this morning.